Burn Baby Burn

September 22, 2008

Doesn’t everyone just hate deceitful people? The two-faced bastards and bitches of the world…

It’s one thing that a person is really a bastard; or a bitch, and that person acts straight towards you. At least you know. It’s like being thrown a punch in broad daylight. At least you can read and react to it.

But it’s another thing to know a person who’s the proverbial “wolf in sheep’s clothing.” That’s the perfect recipe for a sucker punch: The type that catches you off-guard. The type that hits you from the least expected direction. The type you’re unguarded from.

And I guess that’s the most annoying thing about it: The surprise factor. It’s not so much that you got hurt. It’s more of the nature of how you got hurt. It’s a combined feeling of: “Takte, naisahan ako nun ah!” and “Of all the people… bakit ikaw?” Andrama diba? Pero totoo.

Anger, hurt pride, sadness, betrayal(?) and disappointment all rolled into one.

That’s probably why a lot of people lose their trust in other people… or in people in general. It’s why they feel the need to be guarded… private and secretive. Not that those people can be blamed. It hurts. For some it’s traumatic. It’s their baggage.

Me? I wouldn’t want to carry the baggage. I mean, not yet. Eventually it might happen, but I have enough sense to get up from being put down at this point. Naturally, I’m already generally secretive, quiet, snobish, aloof and reserved (although when the emotions kick in, it’s like Jekyll and Hyde, I admit). But no, I don’t want to carry the baggage just yet. It’s like conceding defeat - imho - to get hurt and then just be on guard to protect yourself from the pain.

What’s worse though is that some people even go to the extent of taking it out on other people. Other people who are clueless of the situation. Iginaganti nila yung nangyari sa kanila sa ibang tao. Those are the people who turn into wolves in sheep’s clothing themselves. No, I don’t want to be like that. Again… I can still help it.

So it’s time to get up. Dust off. Put yourself out there again. Lets see what happens.

burn baby. burn.

I miss blogging like this. >:-)